DEPTH FACTOR: HOW DEEP CAN YOU GO?
We have started a new way for everyone to communicate with each other and express yourselves. It's called Depth Factor. I have always felt like talking about "deep" things is uncomfortable for some people, at least out in public.. At the same time, I've always wanted to find a way to get closer to you and encourage every one of you to express yourselves without anyone judging you. I feel like this is a place where we can all come together to discuss life experiences, movies, books, music, and anything and everything that has real substance to it. All of us, in trapt, really want to know who our fans are. We would love it if you could post a blog, video, audio, picutres/stories about a personal experience or something about someone you loved, lost, hated, etc., any poems you think the people on
this community will like, movies that drew you in and made you really feel something, any books that we should read (I would especially like that, since it helps me write lyrics),and most importantly music we should be listening to.
Let's grow this site together and watch it take on a life of it's own.
Just to start things off, I have posted three blogs from my personal myspace, just things I often think about, but don't always openly discuss with my friends too much.
Talk to you all soon,
Chris
this community will like, movies that drew you in and made you really feel something, any books that we should read (I would especially like that, since it helps me write lyrics),and most importantly music we should be listening to.
Let's grow this site together and watch it take on a life of it's own.
Just to start things off, I have posted three blogs from my personal myspace, just things I often think about, but don't always openly discuss with my friends too much.
Talk to you all soon,
Chris
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Permalink Reply by Mike on -
This is what i get from listening to trapt's music. Chris' lyrics have taught me to just go after my dreams.
One day I want to wake up as a rock star
Playing shows and writing songs on my guitar
People tell me it won't happen
They say it can't happen; not to me
I just smile and say
You have one life, and that's it.
You'll only have one chance to make something of this life.
So why not go for it?
There's a dream job out there for everyone
And everyone dreams of having that job
Some people just tell themselves it can't happen
They say it won't happen
As they tell themselves that, their life goes by
Eventually some one else will take that job
And your dream is shattered
So why not take the risk and go for it?
Why shouldn't you get to fulfill your dreams?
Why can't that be you?
I'm building up my life one goal at a time
I’m getting closer and closer to my dream everyday
I'm practicing and working hard till the day I reach it
Even if I don't I can still say I tried
I'm not afraid to fail as long as I can say that.
Music has made me realize this
It's motivated me into going for it
Not one person's going to talk me out of it
Music rushes through my veins all the time
I'm always thinking about it, playing songs in my head
And I let it take control
I listen to the lyrics, melody, tone, and beat
And I come to this realization
Music's my life and no one can take that away
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Permalink Reply by Viva on -
I believe in you TAG! Someday we'll see you ROCKN out on stage! Keep your dream alive!
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Permalink Reply by Rok on -
Warning: This is all going to come across very jumbled. There's just a lot going on and it's all coming out at once.
You all know me as Rok, I'm helpful whenever I can be, i'm passionate for what I believe in, i'm hardworking, i'm friendly, and i'm extremely loyal. My personal motto is music is life, and I aspire to work in the music industry on the business side of things one day. Some of you have probably figured that out all by now, from the last year of my involvement on Fancorps.
Here's what you don't know, and for Chris to call me out and encourage me to be honest and forthcoming is something I needed, however indirect it was intended (as in, Chris doesn't know me and didn't say it particularily to me, lol).
None of us are perfect, not even I. I was born with an imperfection that affects me on a daily basis. I'm hearing impaired. While i'm not deaf, I pretty much rely on my left ear as my "good ear". And although I have accepted this as who I am and will not apologize for my inability to always hear you the first time, I think it's made me become a person that won't accept anything more imperfect past that in myself. I have the upmost patience for everyone else, but don't allow the same luxury of myself. So when I fail, I take it hard. And I take it out on myself.
Right now, i'm struggling in a lot of aspects of my life. A month ago, I got let go from my job because a coworker threatened physical violence against me. Somehow, it's my fault and I was viewed as the problem and therfor was terminated as a "business decision". I'm also struggling with my very own "Black Rose". A best friend that meant the world to me and I would have done anything for. She may have been the "Black Rose" in my garden, but now that she's not even in the garden, I wouldn't have had it any other way if that meant I could have her back as a friend. Back in January, she decided that being friends with me wasn't what she wanted anymore and walked away without so much as a word.
My biggest and deepest fear in life is dying unloved, and that feeling looms like a cloud a few shades darker than usual, when I feel this alone. Although I have a great family, they have never been one to lean on with my personal problems. Because I have always been the strong, brave one who everyone can come to when they need someone. The other friends I do have, use me for my loyalty, honesty, trust, and shoulder; but could care less when i'm the one that needs to lean on someone. Music is all I have and that's why music is life. And if I didn't have it, I wouldn't be here.
My confidence struggles the most at times like this, although it's never 100%. I lost a job I enjoyed and couldn't do anything about it. I lost a friend who walked away without even telling me why and at the moments I wish I had someone to talk to, I find the room empty. I want more than anything to find a job in the music industry and travel. Because only then, I just might be comfortable in my own skin and can stop living this facade.
So in all of this, I find msyelf tying everything from Chris' three posts right into my life. I am numb, and I know it. I thrive to feel alive again and feel the light in my eyes. I've always wanted to be someone to nobody but myself (although, it'd be nice for others to see me as someone too, lol) and I touched down on the whole confidence thing too.
So yeah, thank-you Chris for encouraging me (indirectly) to let go a little bit of the things weighing me down. To everyone else.... yeah.... this is me.
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Permalink Reply by Justin on -
I find that quite interesting as I work in the interpreting field with my mother... Thanks for sharing... more to come... little time to reply...
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Permalink Reply by Viva on
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Wow Rok thats really personal info. You are brave to share so much. I too lost my job a few years back because I was being threatened by a co-worker. In this world the female persuasion still has a difficult road to travel in the corporate industry & fair has nothing to do with it. I personally chose to take a different path in life after that moment. My whole life changed & I dispised employeers but now I teach children to dance & I am starting to love what I do again.
My biggest fear in this life is dying never having loved someone. This is going to sound terribly wrong but I know I have been loved; I just never love back. Brier walls shroud a comfortably numb corpse lost in the depths of dispare. Sprang up poisoned thorns, childhood treachery, matured piercing bane. I know what I would love but, what does one do when what one wants, isn't a choice on the menu... so I fill the void & find other ways of amusing myself with the walking carcass I am so bestowed.
Chris has started a great thing.
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Permalink Reply by chris taylor brown on -
That is a lot of pain in such a short time. Sometimes we get unlucky and everything that can go wrong does and it hits us like a ton of bricks. Try not to give someone, that you haven't yet met, so much power that you fear being without them. It's about being comfortable with yourself. More than ever this is a time in your life where YOU can be the selfish one for a little while.
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Permalink Reply by Rok on
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Thank-you Chris.
I've heard a lot of people tell me to stop being so selfless and be selfish for once and I try. But i'm a really f****d up individual that would rather everyone else be happy, before I think of me, because that feels like a greater accomplishment and contribution to this world in some kind of light i've yet to figure out. I wear my heart on my sleeve and I think that's what gets me in the most trouble. Especially during these times where I feel like i've been treading water for far too long and I don't have much energy to keep going. You wrote about this album a while back on Fancorps, and it spoke volumes to me. I'm trying to better my mental state, as well as myself. But how many times do you get knocked down before you get sick of getting back up? lol
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Permalink Reply by Stephanie on -
You have been dealt alot recently but you dont give yourself enough credit...You are still here..still reaching out and from what I can see you arent giving up...You are stronger than you know!! I strongly believe EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON! Look at that job you lost as a door for a better job to come your way....That "black rose," though painful to let go,as a door open for somebody else to walk in and maybe it will be the perfect someone..and "dying unloved," well,this was a lesson I had to learn the hard way...Nobody can love you until you love yourself..If you love yourself then you are never "unloved"...Start with the qualities you layed out,loyalty,honesty,trust,a shoulder for all...Those are pretty impressive qualities in anyone and you should be proud you have those...Most people while they boast they have these qualities about themselves,few actually do...In reading the above,something tells me,you are one that gives your all...Dont want something so bad you will settle for anything..."Settling" while it may bring a tad of happiness for a while..will only bring misery in the end...Take time to know you and love YOU!! Once you come to a place where you can be comfortable in the down time with only you...then you can be comfortable with anyone...You know the thoughts you have at night when you turn out the lights,and its only you with you...when your fears come the the forefront of your eyelids and your heart and soul begins to wonder...Bring those out into the light...Bring those out into the daytime...Deal with them...Give yourself the credit you deserve without waiting on others to do it...You are SOMETHING..nobody is nothing....We are all loved in some way even if its you loving you...thats the greatest love of all....love of yourself...then anything is possible and confidence follows that.....You are greater than you know!!!
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Permalink Reply by Erika on -
WOW your living my life pretty much I will be there for all of my friends but when it comes to my problems all i get is the cold shoulder.They don't even care. If they do something I don't like and I ask them to stop i get attitude. My "friends" aren't really all that true and I know that. But I let everyone walk all over me cause I don't want to be alone. The first time I heard Trapt was the best experience of my life. They have always been there for me although they aren't physically there. And when I tell my family I want to get a tattoo of the symbol they look at me and say why it's just a band you're gonna regret when you're older it I tell them no I wont trust me. The thing they don't realize is that Trapt is all I know.They were there when I really needed someone and like you if it wasn't for music/Trapt I wouldn't be here. I also cant hear as well I always have to ask twice or more.People usually give up on me and say never mind.
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